Dark Mornings

Dark Mornings know me best
they get the fears that I confess.
The cold heart that I've grown to know
will never let me begin to grow.

Fear of love, Fear of hate.
Fear of the future and what it holds.
Fear of people and their thoughts.
Fear of losing my own hope.

People pass me day to day
wondering how I became this way.
The loss of love, the loss of faith.
The loss of people along the way.

Afraid of giving to much love.
Afraid of being stepped on.
Afraid of not reaching my potential.
Afraid of you being completely gone.

My tears won't appear tonight
Im all cried dry.
Scarlet drops replace them now.
Im dead inside and out.

Scared of letting myself go.
Scared of letting the world know.
Scared of what you do to me.
Making me be completely free.

#STOLEN

#STOLEN

(I'll be updated every week with my favorite quote)

"sixteen was like trying to paint with a shaking hand."

- Arabella 

"We fear the bad. and we only tell people the good."

-Navy Skye

Don't get to comfortable

I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO FEEL COMFORTABLE IN MY OWN SKIN. To carry myself with confidence that shows everyone around me that I know where I am going. To talk without being afraid of what people think of me. 

Truth is I say I don't care what people think of me when I really do, I think everybody cares to some extent of what people think of them. Truth is I don't know where the hell I'm going but I'm okay with that because ive got time to figure that all out. And truth is I'm terrified to grow up. Truth is I went to sadies with a quiet guy last night because I love silence every once and a while.

I've often wondered why I'm not that girl that talks about everything with everyone without a care in the world, I wish I was. But then I realized that I compare myself to others around me too much and how unhealthy that is. It's time I stopped. AND THEN I WOULD FINALLY FEEL COMFORTABLE IN MY OWN SKIN.

How to be BASIC

Steps in becoming a BASIC WHITE GIRL

1. Be afraid to be judged.

2. Care about your appearance way too much.

3. Become addicted to Starbucks even if you think it's disgusting.

4. Watch Netflix everyday and tell people that it's your boyfriend.

5. Have a million selfies on your phone.

6. Be insecure about everything.

7. Assume your unique when your actually a BASIC WHITE GIRL.

Differences

Yeah, I'm different. But so are you..

-I have a phobia of feet if they come remotely near me I have a heart attach, literally.

-I don't care to wear makeup at all because I'm too lazy, I'd rather sleep in then have people think I look pretty.

-I'd rather be in the Mountains than at the beach. It's a different kind of beauty in the mnts than anywhere else.

-I've always wanted to be homeless. Well not in the way that you beg for money but just the thought that I wouldn't have to pay bills and wouldn't have  obligations for anything. I could live anywhere I wanted and work from the bottom up.

-My best friends are my siblings even though more than half of the time we're in a fight or just sick of each other.

-I'm a romantic in all ways but haven't had my first kiss yet.

-id rather sit and watch a movie than go to a party.

-I'm horrible at rapping, while the rest of my family is really good at it.

-I'm addicted to thrifting, I can't handle not getting the best stuff for an amazing price.

-my eyes change from blue to green to gray.

- I'm not a normal girl, I hate drama. 

-I'm a major backseat driver.

- I hate B&W movies but love B&W pictures.

LIFE'S TOO SHORT TO EVEN CARE AT ALL, SO I DON'T.